Anomaly Song Lyrics - Jessica Windsor

Why do I say things I don't mean
Why do I find the knife that stings the most
Every time I keep it close in the back of my mind
Just in case the one that I love hurts me first

I pull you close then I push you away
I half believe all the words that you say
And I'm waiting to make that mistake that will make you leave me
I'd rather be with you than be alone
When the other shoe drops I will just put it on
And I'll walk on my own till I stumble on someone who needs me

Why do I play this part so well
How do I do it so you can't tell
I'm bleeding inside losing my mind cause I can't seem to find the one that is right
So I settle for one that will work for a while

I pull you close then I push you away
I half believe all the words that you say
And I'm waiting to make that mistake that will make you leave me
I'd rather be with you than be alone
When the other shoe drops I will just put it on
And I'll walk on my own till I stumble on someone who needs me

They say it's not you, it's me
But that's harder to believe
Will I ever be someone who wins
Am I an anomaly
Or is this my destiny
Someone you take or leave with the wind

I pull you close then I push you away
I half believe all the words that you say
And I'm waiting to make that mistake that will make you leave me
I'd rather be with you than be alone
When the other shoe drops I will just put it on
And I'll walk on my own till I stumble on someone who needs me